Sunday, October 12, 2008 they matter so much...and how they can make u utterly conscious

ok..I have an inkling of the fact that sometimes I am given more attention than needed and more than I demand..And that really makes me feel conscious..Then I rather not think about my looks..or whatever...I mean ok guys would notice your face first..and if u have a good face...U would end up getting oodles of attention..sometimes its not all the times..

Like for instance..sometimes people don know how to really pay you a compliment..and you end up getting day in my office..I was paid a compliment in a way it din sound like on..I was wearing a red dress..and this guy..I totally disliked..was like..the color of your dress is reflecting on your cheeks..And I was like..what was that??? :D cheapo..din even know how to pay me a compliment..

And at times..people end up offering free advice when you havent asked for the other day one of these guys in office was shouldnt wear this doesnt suit u :O I wanted to ask him "dude did i even ask your opinion" Guys will be guys..wont they??

Ha ha..and one more recent experiences of mine..People will usually ask you things which are obvious..I had these red colored specs frame i bought..and one day i wore the same..and people were like new specs?? hee hee..gee i mean you feel good when people notice you like this..but sometimes it just gets to you :P

Conclusion : If you look good..and you are avoid consciousness..better forget abt ur good looks :D

Monday, September 01, 2008


why is it so hard to comprehend even what you are feeling and why you are feeling this way or that way? And I have observed that I don try to dig too much..jus flow with the emotions..Like today..when I was out of office...I felt a void..a blankness in me..a strange kind of feeling which i cudnt fathom..It was something I did not want to think I thought I would have a nice sandwich and head for killing some time at forum..

But then I felt with my mood..everything seemed dull..the sandwich waala made my sandwich the way I did not want it..and I ended up having it as a take away so that I could feed it to a street dog..Dogss..they are so cute..everyday I pass the same street and I see this nice furry stout din cross my mind that I was going to feed him...But when I passed the place he usually sat lazily..I found myself searching for this man's best friend..Somehow I feel a bonding with every doggie..may it be a pet or on the street..they seem equally loving to me..sigh...someday I will have a pet...And finally I found Mr mottuu..hee hee i jus thought it up now, this name for him, sitting on a nice sack like rug..lazing again..and I lovingly placed the sandwich for it to looked at me with such compassionate eyes..Well, I have strayed away from the main theme..

Okk..after the sandwich spoiler..anyways I did head for forum..talking to a buddy on the thankfully I wasn't so blank then. Once I did reach forum..I found myself window shopping..cos that is the sole option of killing time there when there are I could take a book and sit in Landmark..But I did not have that much time and patience at that juncture...Unable to code a certain thing, a certain work was still doing some rounds in my head....somehow I wanted to let go of those thoughts..I did forget the work part..but again I said everything proved that whatever be your how you would see the things around..Like they say..Laugh and the world laughs with you, Cry and you cry alone..ok ok I wasnt crying...but yes I wasnt feeling all that good..well people in my proximity thankfully contributed nothing to worsen my mood...

With every shop I window shopped and loitered in, I felt every store had some crap that was atrociuosly priced. Brands seemed only namesake..or I think they are..2000 ruppees for a tracks..damn! Nike Reebok..Bullshit!! Only amusing things I could find were in Archies ..a ridiculous soft toy named Funny looked more stupid than this material world...Somehow I did not get peace of mind..came to my mind, maybe a bite would help..Went to Mc D after ages..Ordered for this Mc Veggie the name of Veggies it had only lettuce :( what the....Thereafter I decided, it was enough killing time and I headed back home...back to my room..still feeling blank....